I heard it said that to understand the peace that surpasses all understanding you have to give up the right to understand.

I had an interesting thing happen in a head-on collision with my automobile. To set up the accident I was sitting still at a red light when the oncoming traffic came into my lane and hit me head-on. Everyone walked away and was alright physically but when the car was being pushed backward I remember the craziest peace that was in the cab. I was so overtaken by this peace that I was dumbfounded about what was going on. Then I started looking at what was trying to happen while I was being consumed by that peace.

A slow-motion experience as I was tossed around in the front seat but no harm came to me. I remember coming to a stop with a loud blaring speaker from the vehicle saying it detected an airbag deployment, over and over. I then got my whits about myself and opened the door wondering if everyone was alright. I sat on the side line texting my wife to come over to the scene.

Emergency equipment, police, bystanders, and all the pieces and parts all over the road. It was the longest trip to Home Depot I ever experienced.

Months later I have not lost that peace, thinking about all the things that were hiding it from the beginning.

Am I allowed to feel this way? I have tried to build up excuses to lump onto my thoughts but it’s just not doable.

Is it simply that I had peace all along and refused to see it? I am learning that this may have been the case as I continue to try and look for the wrong things.

I have found a peace that won’t let go.